(Dedicated to anyone out there that has been or is going through the pain and anxiety of an on-line relationship with someone....
It is so hard with the internet, to be so close in an instant but so far away in reality.....)



...I wake up--my first thoughts,
you know the who--
but it is the what and the
WHY??
Humdrum attitudes--nowhere can be found---
shredded reality bites the dust, complete chaos enters....
WHY??
....wiping the mistaken-fogged windows of my heart's swinging doors
---they keep smearing....
WHY??
Happiness, Love, contentment, all good things,
so close--
but my past magnifies itself like an unapproachable omen......
WHY??
Visualizing a moment
...a hug---
my heart and soul reaches out
---grabbling only tidbits of hope....
WHY??
Searching through my weary mind,
fitting slowly each piece of this new wondrous puzzle together.....
WHY??
Quality Dream Time I am now abundantly supplied,
because you are there--
But, You are only there
...Im Here.....
WHY??
Love Songs on the Radio ring out like church bells on a Sunday
--when you decide to stay home.....
WHY??
I Cry, I ache, from head to toe,
many roads, many flashing signs
---I am a mess.....
WHY??
Can it really happen to me
can it be for real,
one time before I die----
can I know, can I share??
---doubt.....
WHY??
I have started down that highway
a million times in my mind
---I have knocked on your door-
I have breathed you...
WHY??
God is here, He is all around,
God is there,
I pray he place us in his complete will.....
WHY??
There is a better life for both of us,
only God knows---
If we deserve each other.....
THAT'S WHY!!
Our future is coming, we don't have to wait...
Here it is now--
and I am so thankful that God is with us all the way...
SO......
Be still my impatient heart,
let the windows of my soul be a mirrored image of my love for my Lord
which gives me the ability to hold on
to these feelings that seem about to explode....
WHY??
It has to be---of and for God this time
---He has to be number one
--above all things
---for it to work here and there.....
THEN....
I can cherish the smile on your sweet face
---knowing I have touched you in my special way,
with God's help.....
WOW....
I can face the rest of my day knowing,
my feelings for you have overflowed again....
WHY??
I don't know,
I don't understand,
I don't question anymore---
I just trust in the lord...
and WAIT...
For Our first real hug!!


[This webpage was created and written by Kenny Mitchell for WebUplifterMinistries ®2003]

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