dear charles: we have been through alot together....and I know you...probably more than anyone else does...probably even more than you know yourself.... I wish I could be there in person...to spend some time, man to man- talk friend to friend, about where both of our lives are going.... Sometimes, I feel like I haven't a clue....but I eventually do make it through the day....and there is peace.... but I know...where I am weak...and where I need to grow and all that jazz in between...but I am quickly headed for the 55 mark and my mind still wants to say''''17 ...my friend..free from worry, problems and just laugh at it all...but there comes a day...you can't just walk away from mistakes, laugh it off, and keep going.... i don't wanna sound all depressed ... i have had a good life, you have too...you have been spared much more than you may believe.... it can always BE WORSE.....there are many different ways to be miserable...AM I CHEERING YOU UP YET...? --- well there probably not many of US sitting around thinking about the other...and wondering...how they are REALLY doing...I do that ALOT... My cousin, TOMMY is in bad shape....They are pretty sure he has cancer due to his drinking, drugs, etc....and if you can find out any more for me...I would appreicate it.....i am never sure of the info i get from the relatives..not very reliable.... shirley came back again, and tried to help him but she stated he is just way too gone for her to handle anymore... i am sorry...didn't mean to get off track...but i wanted to mention that just in case you find out anything.... between me and you...PLEASE....this massachusetts ride is not such a smooth one for me or mom.....we are outnumbered ... i am not saying things are bad...they just seem to be NOT HAPPENING AT ALL....i feel overlooked and overwhelmed with all that goes on around me.... SO..MY FRIEND....YOUR POSITIVE MESSAGES TO ME AND MINE TO YOU...WILL HOPEFULLY SUSTAIN US UNTIL THE SUN SHINES DOWN ON BOTH OF US AGAIN... IT WILL....I KNOW THAT....I JUST DON'T WANT IT TO FALL DOWN ON ME AND BURN ME UP... ....i have no idea if any of this helped, if it gave you an idea of my side of the tracks...or even if you have time or space to care at this point..but i had to write you FIRST this time....My fingers needed to go across the keyboard and empty some of these negative thoughts and have them recycled as only you could do.... BUT...LET UP ON JACK PLEASE....HE IS NOT LEADING YOU DOWN THE ROAD you really wanna go.....YOU HAVE ALWAYS HAD SO MUCH POTENTIAL.....DON'T GIVE THAT UP FOR ANYONE..OR ANYTHING...AND NEVER THINK THAT LIFE JUST SUX...CAUSE "WHEN YOU SEE THE SMILE OF SKYLAR LOOKING AT YOU...." IT MAKES ANOTHER DAY POSSIBLE....AND LIKE ME....YOU FIND OUT...THEY GROW UP FAST..AND ARE GONE...SO GIVE HIM ALL THE LOVE AND ATTENTION YOU CAN....AND HOPE THAT HE HOLDS ON TO SOME OF IT... OK...TAKE UP THE OFFERING...I AM THROUGH PREACHING...I WOULD APPRECIATE FEEDBACK....I REALLY DO CARE ABOUT YOU AND HOPE I CAN HELP...AND WILL DO ANYTHING I CAN DO TO DO THAT FOR YOU....WE ARE FRIENDS...WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH ALMOST IT ALL..BUT IN THE END...I WANT US TO KNOW THAT WE HAVE HELPED EACH OTHER EVERY WAY WE COULD.....SINCERELY, KENNY..... ATTENTION: You must name this file before you can save it. Place the file name in the filename input next to the save button. ALSO: It is recommended that instead of using this "create a new page option" you should make your own template. Create a template file such as "html_template.html" and click to edit that file. You can then create your page with your own template and save it as any file name. For instance, if you use certain scripts, style sheets or meta tags in all of your pages you may want to create a template so you don't have to add those each time you create a page.