I belong to a small Southern Baptist church, where I enjoy the fellowship because it is so small you really get to know everybody. It is nice, and I am always moved to tears by the Holy Spirit, during the sermons. They are tears of Joy, because my life has been completely transformed. I was once a promiscuous drug addict and raging alcoholic, who also suffered from major depression. Those days are over, and I thank God that he rescued me from the pit. I am so hungry for the word of God I read the Bible and Christian books, non-stop. I am currently memorizing a scripture a week. I have read the entire Bible and then some!!! I especially enjoy praying the Psalms of David.
My other hobbies besides reading and writing are: kayaking, biking, hiking, camping, and rollerblading. I am very athletic, when I was younger I was a competitive gymnast, at the Elite level, and won several state championships at the highest level. When I quit the gymnastics, I began drinking and drugging. I lived in a virtual hell for almost 20 years, going from one jail or institution to the other. I stayed in bed for years with depression. I couldn't work, and was afraid to even go out in public, I had become a hermit due to my drinking problem and the depression.
One day as I was laying in bed crying, like I normally use to do, I heard a voice say to me, "You have one life, you can spend it like this or you can get out of that bed and start living." I was suicidal at that point and before I heard this voice, I had attempted suicide four times, ending up in the ER every time. I also overdosed many times and was in and out of ER's due to that and have had my head stitched up 5 times, due to passing out drunk.
After hearing this voice, I started to try to live again, but I kept failing miserably, getting fired from one job after another. I finally had to move back home to my parent's where I spent more years laying in bed in a deep depression.
Then I met my husband who told me about Jesus Christ, and I saw the way he lived, and I knew I couldn't continue living the way I was because I was near death so many times. I cried on the floor to Jesus for help, and I felt this calm wash over me, that I had never known in my life. The tears that I had cried for so many years, from the depression ceased. My fear of people vanished, I started being able to go out in public again. I started going to church and I was Baptized and accepted Jesus as my personal Lord and Saviour. My life has never been the same. He gave me a loving husband, and a job that is flourishing, and I have never touched a drink or a drug since then. I haven't had any cravings to drink, and I do know that "All things are possible through Christ who strengthens me."
Now, I am trying to help those who are suffering as I once did, from depression and alcoholism and drug addiction. My Christian friend's mean the world to me, and are a great support system, and I love sharing our lives with one another.